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Kumusta, everyone!

I am literally writing this while I am on my break from self-study hours. I don't know why but I just felt making an entry here again. Anyway, so I just want to say that... my pacing in studying is HORRIBLE. We've already kicked off Day 3 subjects (started off with Algebra) but I'm still on Day 1 Inorganic Chemistry! Like, what the hell? After Day 1, I still have to review Heat and Mass Transfer, which are included on Day 2 subjects and I tell you, it's gonna be harder for me to catch up. I'm just so so so angry at myself for being like this. Why am I so lazy at times when I needed to be productive the most? Why can't I understand the concepts easily? I am aiming to be a topnotcher but with this kind of pacing and brain capacity and ability, can I even achieve that? Like, who the hell am I to even dream about that? 

And then I asked God. And then I saw this:
There's still self-doubt within me but I just fully trust God. I know that His plans will be for my best. 

Oh gosh, I suddenly remember I need to review another set of flashcards today. AAARRGHH! I hate reading and studying these flashcards because not only are there SO MANY (5202 flashcards to be exact, how fun right?), some of the items give the wrong answer and whatever answer Indiabix gives us, we have to follow that answer even if it doesn't make sense.
This is how I study Indiabix

This is how I study. Soooo disorganized.

I just...sigh.

Hanggang sa muli,
King Guinny

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